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| User: | obscured_exile (7668371)
Poisoned and pained
perfect and poisonous
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| Name: | obscured_exile |
| Location: | Seattle, Washington, United States |
| Birthdate: | 1977-08-01 |
| Bio: | im just a girl who most people consider weird or unique
im a mix of all the stereo types of goth,indie,eurotrash,grunge,punk,spacerock etc....
im a very stong girl have been through more in my 28 years than most people should endure in 4 lifetimes.
my journal is my feelings and nothing more.dont judge or read into it to deeply you may get lost in my twisted mind.If you dont like depressive 28 year old girls who post bad poetry and intense issues then bugger off! this is for MY personal thoughts not to please an audience..*MAY BE TRIGGERING TO SOME FOLKS*...
journal contains love,sex,pain,confusion,suffering,phobias,drug use,mental illnesses,self harm etc... dont say i didnt warn you!
*kisses*
also you can see what kinda girl iam by my random photo posts,communities im in and my interests:)
i found my savior under a pile of used condoms
this obscene reality twists through me like an interrupted orgasm
my fire of my sign will warm you and your water will quentch this everlasting thirst for love and death
im closer to finding God and answers for my existance
but will he be pretty with silver eyes and pink cheeks?
i dream of an after world to satisfy my urges for lust and obsession
big eyes and a swollen heart is the diagnosis they have laid upon me
a hero is only a perception of ones mind
shake my hand without fear or excitment
i will be there when you see the laughing clowns of satan's revenge.~written by ME
the tea party:
RELEASE
I want the world to wake
I want to give you peace
I want to vindicate
You need to be released
Don't want to hurt you
I need to make you see
If I desert you
Its just to make you see
That I'm a man that's weak
And I'm a man that's lost
I give it all away
To complicate the cost
Don't want to hurt you
I need to make you see
If I desert you
Its just to make you see
I'm not going to hurt you now
I need to make you see
If I desert you now
Its just to make you see
I want you to be free
I want you to be free from me
THE MESSENGER
gotta letter from the messenger
i read it when it came
it said that you were wounded
you were bound and chained
you had love and you were handled
you were poisoned you were pained
oh no, oh no you were naked
you were shamed
you could almost touch heaven
right there in front of you
liberty just slipped away on us
now there's so much work to do
oh the door that closes tightly
is the door than can swing wide
oh no, not expecting to collide
for a minute i let my guard down
not afraid to be found out
i completely forgot dear
what our fears were all about
oh no,oh no there's no need to be without
if there's a chance i would take it
this desire i can't kill
take my heart please don't break it
i will crawl to your foothill
i'm frightened but i'm coming
please baby please lay still
oh no i'm not coming for the kill
oh no i'm not coming for the kill
oh no i'm not coming for the kill
PSYCHOPOMP
You wanted this
So sad to see
The sweet decay
Of ecstasy
And you want it all
A frozen sun,
Will guide you there
As shadows hide
The deep despair
I'll give you something more
And you'll fade away
One last kiss before
You fade away.
So sleep tonight,
In idle dreams
The pain will drown,
Your silent screams
And you want it all
I'll give you something more
And you'll fade away
One last kiss before
You fade away
Lives you once adored
will fade away
Lies you can't ignore
You soon repay
As you fade away
*PLEASE BE 18 TO REQUEST BEING ADDED TO MY JOURNAL*
My life is rated NC-17.
What is your life rated?
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| Interests: | 149: acting, activism, addiction, alice in chains, amazon.com, andrew wood, androgony, andy warhol factory, angelina jolie, anglophiles, art, art films, artists, babes in toyland, band t-shirts, basketball diaries, bbws, black clothes, bleached hair, books, brated movies, bratmobile, brian molko, british music magazines, bruises, carnivals at night, cats, cbgb, cd burning, cheap cigarettes, cheese, chocolate, classic horror, courtney love, criminology, crying, daydreaming, dead end, drag shows, dream interpatation, drew barrymore, early 90s, eddie vedder, energy drinks, ewan mcgregor, exotic masks, fat acceptance, fishnets, frances bean, galaxie500, girl interrupted, glam rock, goth, graveyards, grunge, hair barrets, hair bleach, hair spray, hole, horror, iced tea, iggy pop, indie, indie moves, industrial, ivisit, jacobs ladder, jarvis cocker, jeff martin, jim morrison, jonathan ryhs meyers, junkie movies, kissing, kurt cobain, layne staley, lead singers, light eyes, live shows, london suede, love, luna, madlove, making icons, manic, meeting celebrities, mental health, mixed cds, mixed tapes, mother love bone, mr.bean, myspace, mysticism, nancy spungen, nostalgia, obscurity, obsessions, old seattle bands, on_line, online shopping, oxycontin, pale skin, para psychology, paranormal, photo manipulation, photography, piercings, plus size models, pulp, punk, ragdoll perfume, ragdolls, reading, recovery, requiem for a dream, rocky horror picture show, saw, screaming trees, seattle, sedation, sex, sex pistols, shaggy hair, shes come undone, sleep deprivation, sleeping pills, sobriety, sophie dahl, soulseek, spiritualized, star fuckers, street muscians, suicide survivors, sybilvane, synth pop, the autumns, the dandy warhols, the doom generation, the doors, the jim carroll band, the lost boys, the muppets, the ravenonettes, the stevenson ranch davidians, the teaparty, the torn skirt, thift shops, velvet goldmine, weird eyes, yard sales |
| Friends: |  | 117: | 2nd_alter_ego, _worship_, ableedingheart, agentparanoia, alexxxxusextasy, alice_gribnaya, amnesia_fantasy, andimonfire, bertrande, bl0odyone, bloodless_wound, browniemcgee, butterymufkin, calicokitten74, celisa, chloe_soldats, chodeeza, christinafairy, circemen, cold_wind_blows, coralscars, crusaderboy, crystalstarr, cyanide_spoon, czecherz, dalmau, deadwillwalk, death_flower, decayingechoes, delicatexflower, deliriumdeiight, disco_necked, distrbd_mistres, dust, essenceofthemus, factoroffour, faybee, feistykitty83, furious_beauty, girlafraid, glittercuts, glitterophelia, godcampboy, groad, grrface325, handrejka, hello_jaime, iisolie, imincrediblyhot, javagoth, jesslostagain, julez_b, kalebsoleil, katowesmemoney, kinderdoll, kirei_na_sakura, krazykatz_76, laurenis, lipstick_frenzy, lofigirl, lordgary, lori_dc, lurex, luxinvidious, lyndi, milkpony, munkey_salad, mustbethecolors, my_sympathy, mzgothicdreamz, neesha, nemjersatyr, newyorkdolls78, nimblebimbo, nineveh_rains, noctra_corvus, nosirrah, nzgoddess, obscenely, obscure_details, oniglass, orchidisis321, orphenadrine, ouija_monkey, out__of__focus, princegold, redcurlyq, robbabubbles, rose_mcgowan, scarabmuffins, scoobertz_76, scyrren, shellybelle, simplehope, sixd9angel, slhshoney, smonion, sp0000n, sparkly_poptart, starreyeddragon, stillbourne, strikingyoudead, thedarbycrash, themirrorscold, theonionchild, toxxickitten, upeer, vintagegirl45, vitaminacetone, voodoo_goddess, vwskeleton, whatalife04, with_in, xisix, xxfamejxx, yoniyum, zaeryk |  | 83: | 21_gashes, _agoraphobia, _commonpeople, _euphoric_mind, a_broken_heart, abandonedplaces, addictionishard, adopt_a_junkie, adult_bipolar, babies_on_fire, bbw_fashions, bbw_goddesses, biggrlsrbetter, borderline, bpdisorder, bpdrecovery, britrock_damage, chelsea_girls, chemicalraping, chubbxcore, chubby_chic, chubbycherybomb, codependntsanon, coincidences, courtneyandhole, creepypeople, curvy_bi_girls, cutshort, dandys_rule_ok, donnie_darko, dream_journal, dreampop_music, drewbarrymore, e_wurtzel, eating_cheap, emetophobia, empty_pockets, euphoric_stupor, fat_art, fatpunkgirls, folklore, formchildstars, horror_film_fan, ibs, ilikemymeds, insomniacsunite, jim_morrison, jimcarroll, jrm_pictures, juicebyyou, m_culkin_fans, nancyspungen, onthewall, opiate_affair, panic_anxiety, panic_disorders, phobia_support, pigtailwhores, pill_addicts, pulpfilesharers, reincarnation, seattledorkgirl, seattlegothic, shoegaze, sick_kids, sid_and_nancy, societysucks, spiralpoets, sub_pop, supersizedbbws, tarotguidance, thewhat_ifs, trainspotters, urban_decay, urbanlegends, velvet_goldmine, vicodinwhore, vintage_sex, vintagegroupies, voluptuouspinup, weird_souls, welikepills, xxborderlinesxx |
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| Mutual Friends: | 72: ableedingheart, agentparanoia, amnesia_fantasy, andimonfire, bertrande, bl0odyone, bloodless_wound, celisa, christinafairy, circemen, cold_wind_blows, crusaderboy, crystalstarr, dalmau, death_flower, decayingechoes, deliriumdeiight, dust, essenceofthemus, faybee, glittercuts, glitterophelia, groad, grrface325, handrejka, hello_jaime, jesslostagain, julez_b, kalebsoleil, katowesmemoney, krazykatz_76, lipstick_frenzy, lordgary, lori_dc, lurex, luxinvidious, munkey_salad, nemjersatyr, newyorkdolls78, nineveh_rains, noctra_corvus, nosirrah, obscure_details, oniglass, orchidisis321, orphenadrine, ouija_monkey, out__of__focus, princegold, robbabubbles, rose_mcgowan, scarabmuffins, scoobertz_76, shellybelle, simplehope, sixd9angel, slhshoney, smonion, sp0000n, sparkly_poptart, starreyeddragon, stillbourne, strikingyoudead, thedarbycrash, themirrorscold, upeer, vitaminacetone, voodoo_goddess, whatalife04, with_in, xisix, xxfamejxx |
| Account type: | Basic Account |
